Two ADHD Queers, One Berlin Night, and a Lot of Questions About Whether Pissing Counts as Praxis
Hacking Hearts releases October 17.
Kevin lives in a Neukölln apartment that's half server farm, half stray cat sanctuary, perched above an anarchist squat. Levin is a performance artist with perfect eyeliner and a desperate need for things to stay under control. They meet on a Berlin S-Bahn platform at night. Eye contact turns into stolen cigarettes. Stolen cigarettes turn into an alley behind trash containers. An alley turns into four days of silence that feels like withdrawal.
Here's what happens when two ADHD brains collide at full speed: they can't shut up. Not during sex. Not during the philosophical tangents that interrupt sex. Not while debating whether pissing on each other counts as reclaiming public space or if that's just what they're telling themselves to justify the kink.
Kevin debates Deleuze with his mouth full. Levin thinks about Marina Abramović mid-orgasm. They argue about late-stage capitalism, commodification of intimacy, and whether dignity is a bourgeois construct—all while one of them is on their knees. Every conversation spirals. Every touch comes with theory attached. Every moment of intimacy doubles as both dare and manifesto.
This is messy. Not the hot kind of messy—though there's plenty of that—but the kind where you can't tell if you're falling for someone or just addicted to the way they short-circuit every defense mechanism you spent years building. The kind where control and chaos keep trading places until you forget which one you were supposed to be.
Explicit. Chaotic. Unapologetically queer.
No fade-to-black. No sanitized kink. Just two beautiful disasters who can't stop talking, can't sit still, and definitely can't keep their hands off each other while simultaneously deconstructing everything that's happening between them.
You want erotica where the characters debate whether androids dream of sucking dick while actually sucking dick? Where watersports come with anarchist theory? Where every sexual encounter is both intensely hot and intellectually exhausting? This is it.
Read it in one sitting. Probably with one hand. Definitely with your brain fully engaged—because these two won't let you turn it off.
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Content Notes
Explicit sexual content (oral sex, anal sex, public sex, masturbation), watersports (piss play), BDSM elements (power dynamics, dominance/submission, degradation, impact play), ADHD representation (racing thoughts, hyperfocus, impulsivity, constant tangents during sex), smoking, profanity, discussions of anti-capitalist theory and anarchist praxis, references to hacking/cybersecurity culture, characters who physically cannot stop talking during intimate moments, philosophical debates as foreplay, casual references to Berlin squat culture and nightlife.
Just two chaotic queers with racing brains and zero boundaries figuring out what happens when the person who unravels you is exactly the person you can't stay away from.
Soft Boys, Hard Truths.
